i love you…but i need to leave…

Your eyes…

The ice crystals in your eyes.

Their faint hue of spring’s blossoming leaves.

The way you blink,

The sadness and coldness in your irises, like a dog abandoned outside in the rain,

A beacon of light somewhere deep inside.

The drops of water and acid rolling down my face,

Leaving crimson scars as they drip.

After you shatter the heart that has been keeping you going,

You sit there with an empty expression on your face, 

A corpse of the love you once shared,

As I fall apart, breaking under the pressure of us…

But I just smile and say I'm fine, with yellow rays of light stemming from my lies.

I'm dying inside, a rabbit,  everyone is telling me to run and hide from you, the sly fox.

I’m tired but I won’t let you know, I can’t speak up,

It’s as if you took a knife and cut my tongue, throat grasped.

Burning embers in my mouth but lips sewn shut so I can’t spit them out.

I keep how I truly feel quiet because I know that if I told you it’d break you.

Are we the same?

We suffer quietly fearful of being the extra weight of old rusty chains.

Your lack of action hurts more than any purple bruise you could give me.

We are the cracks in the concrete of an old building, but I am the workers mixing new concrete to fill yours.

We are the broken vase before it’s gilded together with gold, but I’m the gold that’s gilding you, while you left me alone.

You are the tail of my Prince Rupert drop.

I fight and I fight to break free but every move entangles me.

You are the spider and I the fly.

You, waiting patiently for the perfect time to strike.

Your lack of words, the silence echoing in the empty void you left in me.

i love you…but i need to leave…