Moving on

The anxiousness I hold in my 

Decisions hurt my soul 

Like a kneeling sinner in mass. 

Begging for help.

Begging for forgiveness.

Begging for guidance.

A relationship once had me

Soaring in the air with no fear,

Now fabric snagging everytime I fall.

Left to crawl.

Is there no hope at all?

Driving down an empty road is useless,

So why do I stay where my ears clog with water every time I’m shoved to greatness?

My team is failing because I am careless.

All I have left to do is heal my wounds with a cold compress.

New opportunities handed to me like roses at the final act.

However, I am held back.

How long can I be pushed till I crack.

The house I loved so deeply is infested. 

Yet I go back to it every night.

My life is filled with chapters I know are bright.

I'm ready to move on to the next,

But this chapter has gone on for so long.

How do I stay strong?

How do I let go?

I just might never know.