They say forgive and forget. Somehow I was never able to do either.  Lying awake in the dark,  tossing and turning between my warm sheets. Replaying all the time I wasted with you,  staring at the hands of the clock ticking closer to dawn.  The sun peeks through the stained windows  and I am not even a little tired. This cycle does no more good for me  than the coffee I drink every morning.  Why should I burden myself with these grudges?  I think of happy moments spent with you, dancing and laughing. Such memories help me briefly forget and it feels like a gentle breeze. Only to be reminded again of the storm  and I hastily return back to my shell.