The anxiousness I hold in my  Decisions hurt my soul  Like a kneeling sinner in mass.  Begging for help. Begging for forgiveness. Begging for guidance. A relationship once had me Soaring in the air with no fear, Now fabric snagging everytime I fall. Left to crawl. Is there no hope at all? Driving down an empty road is useless, So why do I stay where my ears clog with water every time I’m shoved to greatness? My team is failing because I am careless. All I have left to do is heal my wounds with a cold compress. New opportunities handed to me like roses at the final act. However, I am held back. How long can I be pushed till I crack. The house I loved so deeply is infested.  Yet I go back to it every night. My life is filled with chapters I know are bright. I'm ready to move on to the next, But this chapter has gone on for so long. How do I stay strong? How do I let go? I just might never know.