How disrespectful of me to love people beyond my capabilities. It is a delusional, ludicrous, and painful way to be. I sacrifice and bleed, while somehow expecting people to do the same for me. I cannot keep shredding myself like paper, dispersing the pieces, and expecting to feel whole. I cannot keep hiding in my shell to protect myself from the damage of love’s hell— A hell that I’m damned to never leave. A hell that feels just right for me.